So far
I am sad that I missed the first class but it’s not too bad. We revised it quickly during the second class.
It’s hard to get back in the “study mode”, it requires a lot of self-discipline. I have been use to pushing back things so much lately it’s hard to suddenly find myself with deadlines. I haven’t caught up with the readings yet but I should be able to do so this week-end.
So far it hasn’t been too hard. A lot of the things covered I had already approached when I first looked into Wicca. But meditation and energy works was something I had always dreaded looking into. I had always believed it was impossible for me to meditate. I had never made the link with the relaxation techniques I had learned as a kid. It’s funny how I never associated the two. To me meditation was only trying to emtpy your mind. I never knew about the existence of guided meditation. Makes sence they said it was a Relaxation class for kids. Not many people would send there children to a meditation class.
I have always known sencing energy was not goign to be a problem for me. After all my personal feild as always been really sensible. lol I remember days in high school where I couldn’t be near Kate. But still that exercice we did was amaizing… and weird. I was pretty surprised when my arm went numb like that. Wonder why, maybe I could look it up on the net, but I doubt I’d find anything, Hobbes did say that it’s diffent for everyone. Maybe that’s just the way I feel it.
Grounding and centering was actually harder for me. During the second class, it really felt as though I had chosen where my center was and just forced all the energy to gather there. Could maybe explain why I had such a hard time feeling Scarlet’s sheild.
I should really do some work on that. I still don’t understand why I came up with this weird visualisation for grounding just before the class this week. But it sure seem to work better than the time before. I have to see is an ancre means anything… Well after all, an ancre is what grounds a boath. But where did such a visualisation came from? Well it might be because of Gaele and all her talk about her sailing class. But why would it work so well?
Hobbes did talk about how the tree analogy didn’t work for him since he never was a tree, and didn’t know how it feels to have roots. Shouldn’t the ancre means something to me if it works…
Lol we talked about not being about to shut the rational brain out, always passing things as a coincidence. Isn’t what I’m just the exact contrary, wanting absoluty this visualisation to have a deeper meaning when it might just be that it’s an efficient imagery for me?
Hobbes said,
March 18, 2006 at 12:02 am
I can see how you could visualize a boat with an anchor holding it in place. You could visualize yourself as riding a sea of energy that is pushing you here and there in your life.
But if you need to stay in one spot, throw your anchor overboard and declare that this is the spot where I’m staying for the time being. While the energy is still all around you, you are holding yourself down and can start pushing that energy in a very directed way.
It all works.