RW 101: Journal Writting
Why are you here? Why do you want to learn about magic & paganism? What do you hope to gain from this progrom?
The very short answer is: because raddmann said “I am Wiccan”. Not that I want to be like him, but those 3 words brought back to me something I had lost, my spirituality.
When I was in high school, I read The Mist of Avaon (Marion Zimmer Bradley) and remember writting in my agenda something along the line of why isn’t it like that, a God and a Goddess? To me even then it made more sense then my catholique upbringing. But at that time, it didn’t go any further then that single thought. I must admit that even if I was taking moral as a religious option in school, they never approached unorthodoxe religions. We only covered the mainline ones and even then, I don’t remember learning what they stand for, only that they existed.
I came across wicca while surfing on the net, a few years later, during college. At that moment I became an avid downloader and printer. Any site I found on the subject was quickely scanned and if I thought it was interesting kept for futur reference. I also started to read a few books on the subject. I quickly became overloaded with information. It was also about that time that I discovered the Magical Blend and the MPRC.
I then became involved a little in the community and participated to a few events. But then, with my entrance in the university, my illness and my departure for England, my spirituality was saddly put at the bottom of my priority list and soon after completly forgotten. To a point where my friend saying he was a wiccan was like a slap on the face to me.
During my first year looking into wicca, I had come across Crescent Moon School and I realised that this was what I needed. Structurized information and support from teachers. Also to find myself with others that are embarking on the same quest as I am is very stimulating. I hope to find my spirituality that I had lost.
Hobbes said,
March 18, 2006 at 12:05 am
Your spirituality was never lost. It was always with you: you’ve just decided to develop and enchance it.
You can’t lose your spirituality any more than you can lose your ability to love, laugh, or cry.